I miss him. Its stupid

I had my hair cut yesterday. I like it. But at the same time I dont. I think it makes me look a bit like a german lesbian. I think Im just gonna have to get used to it while I wait for it to grow *sighs*



This song makes me sad. But I cant stop listening to it.
Im glad I got that message, but I also wish I hadnt because its made me think and thinking is bad. Very very very bad.

Without you I just can't find my way

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I don't know what I should do now
I don't know where I should go
I'm still here waiting for you
I'm lost when you're not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can't let you go

Well, thats how Im feeling right now. I hate how Simple Plan speak to me with how I feel about him.
Why did he have to say that? Why why why?!!!!! Ok, so yes, it has made me feel good. So happy, yet so sad at the same time. So much so I cried. Stupid, isnt it? I have this immense feeling of loss now and I cant get away from it :(
I need to talk to him

What am I going to do on a Saturday evening now that Doctor Who is gone? :(

I didnt like that ending. Too vague. AND HE STILL DIDNT SAY I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRGH! *ahem*
In many ways it would have been better if Rose had died. Not just on earth, but totally and completley, not living on a parallel world.

Poor Doctor. I dont like to see him cry

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How wonderfully random!

Ive been having fun with hair dye.... So I thought Id share ^_^



Sunday, funkey


Wednesday, vile hair


Thursday, normality and looking good again

You scored as 10th Doctor. Rude and not ginger. You wear glasses and help people. </td> 10th Doctor 83% 9th Doctor 67% 5th Doctor 58% 3rd doctor 50% 1st Doctor 50% 7th Doctor 42% 6th doctor 33% 4th Doctor 33% 2nd doctor 25% a Dalek 25% Davros 25% 8th Doctor 8% What Doctor Who character are You? created with QuizFarm.com

Naturally ;)

I fun today. Saw Lousia again for the first time in a long time, was great to catch up and have general gossip. And have a few stupid pictures taken.. I'll put them up later


I doodled an ood today too. Im very proud, and hopefully the person this is for will like it too!

I think I failed my english AS today. Totally mucked up the exam

But I did make these:

Im so proud of myself! I actually drew something worthwhile looking at!

Took me about 5-6 hours roundabout... Automatic pencil, fancy smancy paper
Reference picture is http://www.bbc.co.uk/doctorwho/gallery/s2_07gallery/hires/idiots_lantern.jpg put you dont wanna compare them. Else you'll see all my horendus mistakes. And please excuse the dodgy teeth, awful grey background, and my handwriting

So booooooooooooooooooored

Im in media not doing my work. I was going to watch a DW confidential but the speakers dont work. Stupid school computers

Icon searching will just have to do instead. Not that I can save any <_<

LORDI WON EUROVISION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!



Ahem

I am outraged at the ending of Green Wing last night

Mac is NOT allowed to die! No. Hes far too shmexy
Guy and Caroline should never be allowed to get married
Mac and Caroline should be getting married
The van hanging off the cliff is exactly the same cliffhanger (in both senses of the word) as the end of the last series
Sue White wasnt funny. She gave birth after only a few weeks and it lived. Actually impossible. Especially when it was a lion cub

I think that I should hide myself away for a few days and not see or speak to anyone.
That would be a good idea


But I'll go look for icons instead. They cheer me up

The diet starts here.

I ate my last cake yesterday. From now on I shall not eat cake, chocolate, crisps, sweets or puddings (unless its fruit or yoghurt)
No more sugar in my tea or on my rice crispies.
And after school = running time

I love showers.

Nothing better on a hot day, than to unwind with a lovely shower

I finally finished my english course work! After only being given ONE evening to do all the corrections, which really isnt fair. Mrs Smith could have said something about it before when she saw me instead if the day before it has to be sent off. Fool.

Im so fed up with having to remind C constantly of things Ive said. Its just so frsutrating! I can say something important to her, then five minutes later, she will have forgotten! But if I forget what she says, she has to patronise me over it, treating me like Im seven, not seventeen!

If i could remember my password and username, I would apply for audience tickets for Top Gear and Qi. But Im a spazz and have forgotten. damn me. And sods law will have it that Ive deleted the email with my details

Why wont she get out of my head? I need to cut them out of my life, and I think that by deleting their accounts from any friends lists they might be on, deleteing their mobile number, blocking their msn and ignoring any posts/messages directed at me, Ive done all I can. Only, ignorning the posts arent so easy... Im just glad she lives too far away to see her regularly, so at least i can avaoid her if needs be.
It feels good to get rid of her though. I just wish I could so do for good *sighs*
Its such a long story, that I dont even know if I can be bothered to write it down.... but I suppose it will help me to sort everything out for good
We were inseparable, partners in crime, best friends. I could tell her anything, and vice versa. Then about a year ago, she met this guy on the internet, and thats when she stopped talking to me. It hurt, and made me angry to be dropped for a bunch of pixels. They finally met, and he dropped her. Guess who she came running back to? Like a sucker I took her back, but she never let me in, so could never tell what was going on inside her head. Everything she said to me seemed like she was looking down her nose at me. If I had a problem that I confided in her, then her problems at that time would always be ten fold to mine. I couldnt win. She consumed everything I held close to me, as if it were a competition and I wasnt allowed to win.
Since that summer, a distance stretched between us that I just couldnt close (yea, cliche I know. But its true) She started doing things I didnt... approve is the wrong word and sounds harsh, but I suppose it will have to do. So yea, like drugs, smoking (which I hate btw), drinking stupidly. I dont mind experimentation, but when you get to the stage of doing it everyday, to me its excessive.
When I went to college and she didnt, our priorities changed. College made me realise myself, I met new people. And the same happened to her too, and the distance got wider. She had little time for me, and me for her, we were both so busy with our own growing up. I tried to converse with her, but to no avail. They stopped after a few words, and the silence spoke more to me. I invited her to stay hoping that would make things better, but we had nothing to talk about, and she couldnt wait to get away.
Ive been holding on to the silence for a long time, holding out some hope. But now I know its no good. I have to say goodbye, because everything she says brings me down.

NO MORE ART EXAM WORK!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO-HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is my spazzy final piece for the exam, word of "Habitation" http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/33076395/



Gawd, I really hate some people. She has the fecking nerve to accusme of abonodning her, after she just suddenly stopped talking to some guy who she later went to on fuck before he left her while the bed was still warm!

Im too lazy to rant any more

There was brocoli in the sugar pot when I went to put sugar in my tea.....

It confuses me as to why and how it got there. I shall have to ask questions on that later


Wooop: New art. You should have a look *nods enthusiastically* http://www.deviantart.com/view/31925747/

So confused.... About everything.

I broke down today; Was sitting in the common room, listening to my music when I couldnt hold back the tears anymore. I was hoping no one would notice cos I was in the corner on my own, but Tim sat next to me, and cuddeled (his word, not mine) me until I had stopped. Only, he didnt let go when I had stopped.

And it made me realize how much I still want him. He screwd me over, but I cant get him out the system. I need to, but hes always there

And after today, I dont know what to think. Sometimes, I wish he would just ignore me, and had left me to my tears. But he had to be nice, and talk to me, try to make me laugh, got me tissue, and didnt even care when my eyeliner was smudged on his new shirt.

This just adds to my confusion. Everything in my head is muddeled up. I cant concentrate on anything and I have my second AS Level in 17 days. My course work is never going to get done.

I wish I knew why I feel this way *sighs*